Tomorrow is Mothers Day and I wanted to wish you all a Happy Mothers Day!!
My Mothers Day usually consists of half day I'm the mom and half day I'm the daughter and tomorrow that's exactly what I'll be doing so I guess it's become a tradition.
Do you have any Mothers Day traditions?
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Saturday, May 1, 2010
One step forward,Two steps back
In order to go forwards, sometimes we need to go backwards.
Just read a book called "From Anger to Forgiveness" by Earnie Larsen. This whole journey is taking on a common thread and that is "GET REAL". As painful as that may be it's so important to be true to yourself about feelings you have. Not only feelings that may be suppressed from childhood but also feelings you have today lest they also become suppressed . My most surprising suppressed emotion has been anger. I would not call myself an angry person but to my surprise anger can manifest itself in different ways and for me it was people pleasing or "The Secret keeper" as Earnie calls it. Always keeping a happy front and always putting my own feelings aside in fear of that person being mad at me or not liking me. Anger is simply a reaction to injustice you have felt. So childhood feelings of not being good enough is the root of my personal injustice and thus there is some anger there. It's so good to be free to discover these feelings in the safety of this time with God. His timing in revealing this to me has allowed me to go to these feelings with very little pain therefore making releasing and forgiving much easier.This has been an interesting time with God, He's so awesome!!!
I wonder sometimes if my suppressed emotions live in my fat and once I release them and forgive them the fat will go too.......wouldn't that be nice!!!What do you think???
Just read a book called "From Anger to Forgiveness" by Earnie Larsen. This whole journey is taking on a common thread and that is "GET REAL". As painful as that may be it's so important to be true to yourself about feelings you have. Not only feelings that may be suppressed from childhood but also feelings you have today lest they also become suppressed . My most surprising suppressed emotion has been anger. I would not call myself an angry person but to my surprise anger can manifest itself in different ways and for me it was people pleasing or "The Secret keeper" as Earnie calls it. Always keeping a happy front and always putting my own feelings aside in fear of that person being mad at me or not liking me. Anger is simply a reaction to injustice you have felt. So childhood feelings of not being good enough is the root of my personal injustice and thus there is some anger there. It's so good to be free to discover these feelings in the safety of this time with God. His timing in revealing this to me has allowed me to go to these feelings with very little pain therefore making releasing and forgiving much easier.This has been an interesting time with God, He's so awesome!!!
I wonder sometimes if my suppressed emotions live in my fat and once I release them and forgive them the fat will go too.......wouldn't that be nice!!!What do you think???
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Calling all "fluffy friends"!!!
Hi it's been awhile,
Whats a blogger got to do to find some fluffy( our family word for fat )friends out there. HELLO,WHERE ARE YOU???? I know for a fact that none of the followers are fluffy so are there any fluffy people out there?
Fluffy understands fluffy , I mean really gets it. As I venture on this internal quest to understanding the root of my fluffiness I'm not getting any thinner on the outside and it sure would be nice to have some fluffy people to talk with. Oh, don't get me wrong I love my slim friends and I understand that even slim people can feel overweight( this has taken me a long time to figure out), but come on, only fluffy really understands fluffy.
I wish this" different weigh" would have been a faster way but I know Gods doing a work and his ways are different than ours so I'll just stay on the "inside" track and learn what God wants me to learn about myself but in the meantime...........WHERE ALL THE FLUFFY PEOPLE??????
Fluffy friend, Angie
Whats a blogger got to do to find some fluffy( our family word for fat )friends out there. HELLO,WHERE ARE YOU???? I know for a fact that none of the followers are fluffy so are there any fluffy people out there?
Fluffy understands fluffy , I mean really gets it. As I venture on this internal quest to understanding the root of my fluffiness I'm not getting any thinner on the outside and it sure would be nice to have some fluffy people to talk with. Oh, don't get me wrong I love my slim friends and I understand that even slim people can feel overweight( this has taken me a long time to figure out), but come on, only fluffy really understands fluffy.
I wish this" different weigh" would have been a faster way but I know Gods doing a work and his ways are different than ours so I'll just stay on the "inside" track and learn what God wants me to learn about myself but in the meantime...........WHERE ALL THE FLUFFY PEOPLE??????
Fluffy friend, Angie
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Lightening the load
I am losing the "weight of my weight".
God always works from the inside out, so it is obvious to me now why He's having to go deep before He works on the surface. It's just like Him to do the opposite of the world. Most people think that if they could just get an "Extreme Makeover" their life would be great, at least that's what I thought. I also thought that by sacrificing my self worth so others would approve of me was a way to be happy. Both of these are not true and are weights that have dropped off me.
I love how God reveals the spiritual through the physical so that we can better understand what we're dealing with. God said, "My burden is light, My yoke is easy". At first I wasn't sure why God asked me to do this "Martha Fast" but I see now that a lot of what I "did" was to get mans approval and wasn't spirit lead so I became weary because it was "my burden"not Gods .The "Martha Fast" was (is) a time of rest and in that rest He was (and is) able to also lighten my spiritual weight that has been a heavy burden for years. A weight of lies about what makes me acceptable; a burden neither light nor easy so not of God. As God reveals more to me and I begin to see through different eyes, exercise and eating better take on a whole new meaning.
Now that I am "practicing" to no longer measure my success, my worth, my acceptance or my beauty by the worlds standards, I'm beginning to feel a little "lighter".
Angie
God always works from the inside out, so it is obvious to me now why He's having to go deep before He works on the surface. It's just like Him to do the opposite of the world. Most people think that if they could just get an "Extreme Makeover" their life would be great, at least that's what I thought. I also thought that by sacrificing my self worth so others would approve of me was a way to be happy. Both of these are not true and are weights that have dropped off me.
I love how God reveals the spiritual through the physical so that we can better understand what we're dealing with. God said, "My burden is light, My yoke is easy". At first I wasn't sure why God asked me to do this "Martha Fast" but I see now that a lot of what I "did" was to get mans approval and wasn't spirit lead so I became weary because it was "my burden"not Gods .The "Martha Fast" was (is) a time of rest and in that rest He was (and is) able to also lighten my spiritual weight that has been a heavy burden for years. A weight of lies about what makes me acceptable; a burden neither light nor easy so not of God. As God reveals more to me and I begin to see through different eyes, exercise and eating better take on a whole new meaning.
Now that I am "practicing" to no longer measure my success, my worth, my acceptance or my beauty by the worlds standards, I'm beginning to feel a little "lighter".
Angie
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Rose coloured glasses
It was nothing in particular that happened today it was just a warm fuzzy feeling God gave me. Since my "Martha fast" (that's what I call my not doing anything extra time) officially started last Dec. I have begun to have a clarity in my spirit which has lead me to places I've never ventured before (i.e. Blogs, daily bible reading, dealing with old issues, not obsessing with my weight and more). I feel separated yet connected, challenged yet peaceful, lifted up yet grounded and I feel different yet more like" me" than I have in years. God's love is so good!!! Hope you're having a blessed day.
Angie
Saturday, March 13, 2010
A New Outlook
I just finished reading "You are not what you weigh" by Lisa Bevere. Danica, thank you for reminding me of this book, I've had it sitting here for over a year. It was great!! Never read a book like at this before, it was a real eye opener for me. In the world, weight lose is very self focused. It's all about keeping your mind on food, calories, points, scales, rewards, the perfect weight, pressure, stress and pretty much everything to do with ME!!! Food is (was) my greatest reward. For every emotion I had, food became my comforter, my joy, my safe place ....sounds sadly familiar. I don't want food or my losing weight to become my "golden calf " my IDOL.
I really am tired of this ruling my life and being my focus. In the book God asked Lisa to fast food for three days and He would heal her metabolism. I prayed and asked God if I should do the same. I tend to read fiction garbage books a lot and it takes the place of the bible more often than I'd like to admit so it makes sense to me that God has asked me to fast all fiction including magazines for a month. This will refocus my life off myself and on to Him. He also asked me to serve myself half of what I would usually take, offer up the food in thanksgiving and trust Him that I will find a natural satisfaction. Lisa also suggested that instead of deciding your goal weight ask God what He thinks you should weigh, so I did that. I got a higher # than what I would have picked but I'll just have to trust Him with this.
So my last weigh in was 3 weeks ago and it was 247lbs, God gave me 193lbs as a # so that is 54 away. I've handed this over to God, I've asked him to please heal my metabolism and to take control of this part of my life. (actually ,every part of my life, Amen) So when difficulties come along I'm going to keep close to God, I know this won't make them all instantly go away, but being close to God can sure make you feel bigger than your problems and then they all seem much smaller.
Thanks for your support,
Angie
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
The Story of Life
Hi Blog reader,
Once upon a time I started a Blog.............
Last week was good in that I had some time reflect ,it got me thinking about my life ,it felt like I was recalling a story I was once told.The fact is everyone has a story , some good ,some bad but all real ,valuable and touching.Our stories are important, they make us who we are and God uses the bad as well as the good to somehow connect us to one another.As this story unfolds it has taken me to some surprising places that, to be honest with you ,I wasn't really expecting.I was planning on focusing on weight lose but realized the weight is just a physical manifestation of unresolved issues.That's a hard reality to face as I 'd like to think I had it all together like I tried to make you all believe I did.So here we are in the chapter of Angie's Story called " She gets real". It's the chapter where I am not DOING alot so no one sees me out there getting involved being super busy hoping that someone notices what a super gal I am.No, it's more of a "be still and know" time.I'm excited about this time because I can already feel changes in myself and I'm pretty sure I've only skimmed the surface .I am truly seeking the real me ,I want to be everything God intended me to be and so I'm willing to go through this "still" time to get there.
I'm also changing the way I look at the "AFTER 7 THING" My friend suggested that instead of saying I CAN"T eat after 7 . say I CAN eat up until 7 and then I'm giving my body a break until breakfast .Basically being more positive in the way I'm viewing my healthy changes.
Angie
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