I'm done blogging. It's been fun but I'm done !!!
It was a strange new world for me and I'm glad I came to visit but it's time to say good bye .
God Bless
Love
Angie
Monday, July 19, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Chub Chasers
Did you know there are people in this world who actually are more attracted to bigger people than thin ones and they have a name: "Chub Chasers". I laughed my head off when I heard this .That is such a funny name but a true thing. I wish I knew this in my early years , I would have been more confident knowing that there were guys that liked chubby girls and think of all the diet money I would have saved. The other day my message therapist asked me if my husband would mind if I got thin . I mentioned this to Stephen and he said he would love me no matter what but he likes me with curves and admits to being a Chub Chaser. So I'm married to one of those people , go figure!!! I laughed again and gave him a big hug and knew then and there that I married the perfect guy!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Release the Giant!!!!!
Sorry, it's been awhile, but lots has happened in the last 3 weeks.
Without going into too much detail, my Mothers day was a huge turning point in my life. I slayed my giant and came out a new person.For the past 10 months God has been preparing me to confront a huge issue in my life and now as I reflect back I see how everything God had me do ( Martha fast , Fiction fast, confronting my weight and journalling on a Blog) led me to a place where I was strong enough to face my giant. God gave me the vision of David and Goliath before I confronted this person and I can't tell you how it helped. It was the physical parallel to what I had to do in the spirit, I love how God does that.
After that day I new I would begin to cleanse the emotional toxins and needed to be prepared. Again Gods timing is so perfect! My friend had mentioned a therapy called stomach message which intrigued me instantly as my stomach is my holding point for all my emotion. It took some time to find the person who knew about this but the timing was perfect and I had my first appointment booked the week after Mothers day.
You have to understand that NO ONE touches my stomach .It is probably my least favorite place on my body( except when I carried my babies) so having a perfect strangers kneading it like a ball of bread dough was a little out of my comfort zone( to say the least!!!). I had to trust that God had planned this so I went and it has been very interesting. I actually felt okay and I have to say that just allowing that part of me to be touched was a huge breakthrough in self acceptance. The second visit resulted in a release of a lot of emotion the next day , thank God I have such a wonderful husband who understood even before I did what was happening and allowed it all to come out . My third visit was yesterday and I feel great today. It's all about messaging out toxins ( physical and emotional ) so I'll keep you updated on my results. Even if nothing more happens after my 6 week session this experience has changed my perception of my stomach , my body and myself.
Without going into too much detail, my Mothers day was a huge turning point in my life. I slayed my giant and came out a new person.For the past 10 months God has been preparing me to confront a huge issue in my life and now as I reflect back I see how everything God had me do ( Martha fast , Fiction fast, confronting my weight and journalling on a Blog) led me to a place where I was strong enough to face my giant. God gave me the vision of David and Goliath before I confronted this person and I can't tell you how it helped. It was the physical parallel to what I had to do in the spirit, I love how God does that.
After that day I new I would begin to cleanse the emotional toxins and needed to be prepared. Again Gods timing is so perfect! My friend had mentioned a therapy called stomach message which intrigued me instantly as my stomach is my holding point for all my emotion. It took some time to find the person who knew about this but the timing was perfect and I had my first appointment booked the week after Mothers day.
You have to understand that NO ONE touches my stomach .It is probably my least favorite place on my body( except when I carried my babies) so having a perfect strangers kneading it like a ball of bread dough was a little out of my comfort zone( to say the least!!!). I had to trust that God had planned this so I went and it has been very interesting. I actually felt okay and I have to say that just allowing that part of me to be touched was a huge breakthrough in self acceptance. The second visit resulted in a release of a lot of emotion the next day , thank God I have such a wonderful husband who understood even before I did what was happening and allowed it all to come out . My third visit was yesterday and I feel great today. It's all about messaging out toxins ( physical and emotional ) so I'll keep you updated on my results. Even if nothing more happens after my 6 week session this experience has changed my perception of my stomach , my body and myself.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Mothers Day Traditions
Tomorrow is Mothers Day and I wanted to wish you all a Happy Mothers Day!!
My Mothers Day usually consists of half day I'm the mom and half day I'm the daughter and tomorrow that's exactly what I'll be doing so I guess it's become a tradition.
Do you have any Mothers Day traditions?
My Mothers Day usually consists of half day I'm the mom and half day I'm the daughter and tomorrow that's exactly what I'll be doing so I guess it's become a tradition.
Do you have any Mothers Day traditions?
Saturday, May 1, 2010
One step forward,Two steps back
In order to go forwards, sometimes we need to go backwards.
Just read a book called "From Anger to Forgiveness" by Earnie Larsen. This whole journey is taking on a common thread and that is "GET REAL". As painful as that may be it's so important to be true to yourself about feelings you have. Not only feelings that may be suppressed from childhood but also feelings you have today lest they also become suppressed . My most surprising suppressed emotion has been anger. I would not call myself an angry person but to my surprise anger can manifest itself in different ways and for me it was people pleasing or "The Secret keeper" as Earnie calls it. Always keeping a happy front and always putting my own feelings aside in fear of that person being mad at me or not liking me. Anger is simply a reaction to injustice you have felt. So childhood feelings of not being good enough is the root of my personal injustice and thus there is some anger there. It's so good to be free to discover these feelings in the safety of this time with God. His timing in revealing this to me has allowed me to go to these feelings with very little pain therefore making releasing and forgiving much easier.This has been an interesting time with God, He's so awesome!!!
I wonder sometimes if my suppressed emotions live in my fat and once I release them and forgive them the fat will go too.......wouldn't that be nice!!!What do you think???
Just read a book called "From Anger to Forgiveness" by Earnie Larsen. This whole journey is taking on a common thread and that is "GET REAL". As painful as that may be it's so important to be true to yourself about feelings you have. Not only feelings that may be suppressed from childhood but also feelings you have today lest they also become suppressed . My most surprising suppressed emotion has been anger. I would not call myself an angry person but to my surprise anger can manifest itself in different ways and for me it was people pleasing or "The Secret keeper" as Earnie calls it. Always keeping a happy front and always putting my own feelings aside in fear of that person being mad at me or not liking me. Anger is simply a reaction to injustice you have felt. So childhood feelings of not being good enough is the root of my personal injustice and thus there is some anger there. It's so good to be free to discover these feelings in the safety of this time with God. His timing in revealing this to me has allowed me to go to these feelings with very little pain therefore making releasing and forgiving much easier.This has been an interesting time with God, He's so awesome!!!
I wonder sometimes if my suppressed emotions live in my fat and once I release them and forgive them the fat will go too.......wouldn't that be nice!!!What do you think???
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Calling all "fluffy friends"!!!
Hi it's been awhile,
Whats a blogger got to do to find some fluffy( our family word for fat )friends out there. HELLO,WHERE ARE YOU???? I know for a fact that none of the followers are fluffy so are there any fluffy people out there?
Fluffy understands fluffy , I mean really gets it. As I venture on this internal quest to understanding the root of my fluffiness I'm not getting any thinner on the outside and it sure would be nice to have some fluffy people to talk with. Oh, don't get me wrong I love my slim friends and I understand that even slim people can feel overweight( this has taken me a long time to figure out), but come on, only fluffy really understands fluffy.
I wish this" different weigh" would have been a faster way but I know Gods doing a work and his ways are different than ours so I'll just stay on the "inside" track and learn what God wants me to learn about myself but in the meantime...........WHERE ALL THE FLUFFY PEOPLE??????
Fluffy friend, Angie
Whats a blogger got to do to find some fluffy( our family word for fat )friends out there. HELLO,WHERE ARE YOU???? I know for a fact that none of the followers are fluffy so are there any fluffy people out there?
Fluffy understands fluffy , I mean really gets it. As I venture on this internal quest to understanding the root of my fluffiness I'm not getting any thinner on the outside and it sure would be nice to have some fluffy people to talk with. Oh, don't get me wrong I love my slim friends and I understand that even slim people can feel overweight( this has taken me a long time to figure out), but come on, only fluffy really understands fluffy.
I wish this" different weigh" would have been a faster way but I know Gods doing a work and his ways are different than ours so I'll just stay on the "inside" track and learn what God wants me to learn about myself but in the meantime...........WHERE ALL THE FLUFFY PEOPLE??????
Fluffy friend, Angie
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Lightening the load
I am losing the "weight of my weight".
God always works from the inside out, so it is obvious to me now why He's having to go deep before He works on the surface. It's just like Him to do the opposite of the world. Most people think that if they could just get an "Extreme Makeover" their life would be great, at least that's what I thought. I also thought that by sacrificing my self worth so others would approve of me was a way to be happy. Both of these are not true and are weights that have dropped off me.
I love how God reveals the spiritual through the physical so that we can better understand what we're dealing with. God said, "My burden is light, My yoke is easy". At first I wasn't sure why God asked me to do this "Martha Fast" but I see now that a lot of what I "did" was to get mans approval and wasn't spirit lead so I became weary because it was "my burden"not Gods .The "Martha Fast" was (is) a time of rest and in that rest He was (and is) able to also lighten my spiritual weight that has been a heavy burden for years. A weight of lies about what makes me acceptable; a burden neither light nor easy so not of God. As God reveals more to me and I begin to see through different eyes, exercise and eating better take on a whole new meaning.
Now that I am "practicing" to no longer measure my success, my worth, my acceptance or my beauty by the worlds standards, I'm beginning to feel a little "lighter".
Angie
God always works from the inside out, so it is obvious to me now why He's having to go deep before He works on the surface. It's just like Him to do the opposite of the world. Most people think that if they could just get an "Extreme Makeover" their life would be great, at least that's what I thought. I also thought that by sacrificing my self worth so others would approve of me was a way to be happy. Both of these are not true and are weights that have dropped off me.
I love how God reveals the spiritual through the physical so that we can better understand what we're dealing with. God said, "My burden is light, My yoke is easy". At first I wasn't sure why God asked me to do this "Martha Fast" but I see now that a lot of what I "did" was to get mans approval and wasn't spirit lead so I became weary because it was "my burden"not Gods .The "Martha Fast" was (is) a time of rest and in that rest He was (and is) able to also lighten my spiritual weight that has been a heavy burden for years. A weight of lies about what makes me acceptable; a burden neither light nor easy so not of God. As God reveals more to me and I begin to see through different eyes, exercise and eating better take on a whole new meaning.
Now that I am "practicing" to no longer measure my success, my worth, my acceptance or my beauty by the worlds standards, I'm beginning to feel a little "lighter".
Angie
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