A New Outlook

I just finished reading "You are not what you weigh" by Lisa Bevere. Danica, thank you for reminding me of this book, I've had it sitting here for over a year. It was great!! Never read a book like at this before, it was a real eye opener for me. In the world, weight lose is very self focused. It's all about keeping your mind on food, calories, points, scales, rewards, the perfect weight, pressure, stress and pretty much everything to do with ME!!! Food is (was) my greatest reward. For every emotion I had, food became my comforter, my joy, my safe place ....sounds sadly familiar. I don't want food or my losing weight to become my "golden calf " my IDOL.

I really am tired of this ruling my life and being my focus. In the book God asked Lisa to fast food for three days and He would heal her metabolism. I prayed and asked God if I should do the same. I tend to read fiction garbage books a lot and it takes the place of the bible more often than I'd like to admit so it makes sense to me that God has asked me to fast all fiction including magazines for a month. This will refocus my life off myself and on to Him. He also asked me to serve myself half of what I would usually take, offer up the food in thanksgiving and trust Him that I will find a natural satisfaction. Lisa also suggested that instead of deciding your goal weight ask God what He thinks you should weigh, so I did that. I got a higher # than what I would have picked but I'll just have to trust Him with this.

So my last weigh in was 3 weeks ago and it was 247lbs, God gave me 193lbs as a # so that is 54 away. I've handed this over to God, I've asked him to please heal my metabolism and to take control of this part of my life. (actually ,every part of my life, Amen) So when difficulties come along I'm going to keep close to God, I know this won't make them all instantly go away, but being close to God can sure make you feel bigger than your problems and then they all seem much smaller.

Thanks for your support,

Angie